Archive for November 28th, 2006

The last month or so the crows have been in town, full force. Sometimes I will see a hawk and then think, no probably just a crow. I began to wonder about why I hadn’t seen hawks around as much. Also I’ve been going through a time of much dream fertility and magic and not so much during the waking dream. So, I’ve been trying to transfer a little bit of the dream magic into the waking dream…things seem to be lifting off the ground a bit.
About a week ago I pulled up to our house and saw a broad-winged hawk following a crow. They were quite low so I was able to see them well. It was pretty cool, because they were the same size and their wings were flapping at the same rate and in a very similar way. Due to the lighting they both looked very dark, but on closer inspection I could see some light feather and pattern on the underside of the broad-winged. The broad-winged continued to chase the crow for another block until the crow looped around and chased the hawk off.
Then, the other day I was out walking with Kevin and he was telling me how he felt a little “sour milk” the night before. I of course responded that he was the sour milk. Then I began to think about how someday I will have kids who will probably give me shit like that, telling me I am the poop, or something along those lines. And I would have to recognize that my true self is not different from the poop’s true nature, etc. As this inner dialog went on, and I acknowledged my non-separateness from things, I felt my consciousness expand to the area around us. I identified with the energy that was the unity between me and all that I could see. I looked around for some kind of magic (as if that wasn’t enough)–like a bird. I didn’t see anything for a while, but then I felt I didn’t need to and that it was very nice to feel again this connectedness. Then I saw a bird that at first looked like a crow. As it began to circle low I realized it was another broad-winged hawk. I walked over so that I was below it and said my hello. It circled for a while and then flew off slowly to chase some little brown birds.
Lately I have seen quite a few interspecies bird encounters. I’ve been thinking about how different the dynamics of battle and hunting and investigation are in the air. Even sharper maneuvers are still tied to the air and its laws. It would be interesting to see some very fast falcon action in person to see how that feels. But for now I am just musing about the different “in the air” life. Also been thinking about the lightness of birds. Humans and earth bound creatures are so heavy and birds must be so light. Been thinking about illness and transformation, either by absorbing qualities or habits of an animal. Like how feeling like you’re walking a tightrope, or teetering on the edge of a cliff is not so great as a human, but if you’re a bird, it is the perfect place for lift-off. Or how osteoporosis bones could be instead thought of as bird bones.
>>>Obviously the coloring is dramatically different in the pics, but somehow not so dramatic in real life. They are about the same size and you can see from the pics they even have that same feather finger thing going on. Broad-winged hawk pic from here. Crow pic from here. Click post title to hear a broad-winged hawk, very exciting.
>>>Call out for a better Ted Andrews site. Right now I am linking to this one, anyone know of a better place to get info on the magic man?


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